Category: What’s on my mind (Page 3 of 4)

I posted this on fb and got a lot of calls and DMs asking me if I was okay.

Thanks for all the awesome suggestions and words of wisdom guys.

This is not an emotional post not was it a call for help don’t worry guysssss…

It was just a thought that came to mind when I see a bunch of youngsters so passionate about one thing and watching them put all their might into it, I just wondered where did this energy I once possessed had gone. It just feels like they can be whatever they want to be as long as they put their heart and soul into it. Maybe some level of “projection into the universes and get what you want” kinda thing?

Don’t get me wrong. I am happy with life, I have achieved alot in my 32 years and I am not fearful of anything. Neither am I gonna close down my beloved company cos I very much love what I do. I’m also learning many new things and gaining experience.

I’m not asking for a pat on the back nor am I pity party kinda person. Those who know me well know that I hate to seek attention.. especially superficial ones. So I do take all the advices to heart and more often then not it’s an awesome reminder..

I love the discussion and I love the ideas and am super thankful for all the edifying moments.

I really appreciate it. so keep discussion open, don’t need to fix me.. cos I am not broken.. hehehe.. a little strange and cray but not broken.. lol..

I never understood it when Daniel tells me that happiness is a choice. I don’t think it is my choice that I get drenched in the rain, nor is it my choice that the train breaks down. Maybe a little my choice since it was my choice to not bring a brolly out or to get on the train.

Then does it mean that the more prepared you are the happier you will be? Then that’s just being prepared and preparing for the worst. That quite a pessimistic way of living!

These days, I kept looking back at my choices in life and wondered if I have completely taken the wrong road. No this is not just a road less travelled, but it felt like a road that brings me nowhere. Maybe towards an edge of a cliff. Or maybe moving forward in t loop the loop?

The decision to not go to work after high school/ poly but going to university. I don’t even know if that was the right choice. Then landing a job in sales, which is what I sucked at. Then failing at being a full-fledged teacher and becoming an allied educator that brings back a little more then 1.5k monthly salary, is the passion to teach really worth drying up my savings?

Then leaving to finally do something I always wanted, travel the world and flying for an airline. The best 3 years of my life I would say but at the end, I still had to leave.

Then thinking I made a great choice to try building a company from nothing with friends, then ended up realising that I was just a cheap employee.

Finally opening my own business and throwing all my money into it and now, living from project to project at the ripe old age of 32. Is this what I really want in life? Off the beaten track? The start-up dream? Then seeing these fresh young faces who just graduate, having rich parents stuffing their faces with money to start their own business, and losing business to them as they are “hungrier for experience and portfolio then money.”

So where does this put me? Right back at the start if I am lucky, off the cliff of I take one more mis step.

But this is life, right? A choice to be happy.

But what really is a choice and what really is happiness?

Just finished a really tough one week project last night and finally got the chance to sit down, reflect on what happened.

You guys pulled off a project where we were seriously understaffed (thanks jie jie), with a super vague brief, some unreasonable request, and ever-changing schedule and instructions. And you guys pulled it off beautifully.

It was not smooth sailing all the way through but now looking at the full picture, I thank God for everything that happened, good or bad.

I feel so blessed to have people who rush down in the middle of the day at a call to help out. Those who just bring down extra equipment so that work runs smoothly without even talking about money.

I thank God for an awesome group of crew that understands that things keep changing and is willing to accommodate. To those who did all possible for our client and went above and beyond of your brief and still report back with a smile, I am so thankful for your smiles guys, I needed it. even though some of you got manhandled in the process.

I thank God especially for my mad editing team, all geniuses in their field, you pulled off the impossible and did it with such style grace and patience, keeping me sane while doing your job late into the night without taking a break even though I keep forgetting to feed you guys. The 3 of you are really my MVP.

Now looking at all the unfortunate things that happened, it cemented so many professional relationship that is already there and built new ones as well. I have learnt so much from this and am surprised of the amount of stress I can take.

Taking multiple bullets for my crew is something that I am willing to do, but I wondered if what I did was the best course of action for my company and reputation when I was instructed to fire my one of my team on the spot.

That being said, at the end of the day, I am grateful for everyone who was there from the first day till the last day. Most importantly, I cannot express my thanks and gratefulness for my usual core team, ‘The Sessionists’. You guys are champs as usual. We have grown much over the years and I’m excited at what the future can bring. I am so grateful to be part of this alliance. ❤

Do you have people on your team that you know that if they are on team, you will not need to worry about anything? That’s the relationship i have with these babies!

They are the ones who believed in us before anyone else did and they stuck by us throughout it all! I am more then blessed to call these people crew and family.

Here is to more projects and films together! Huat ah!

Late last night I had this convosation with myself as i tried to sleep.

Me: This is impossible.
Brain: Oh yes it is, but you can do it
Me: Not with such a short turn ard time!
Brain: But you will get it done. You have to!
Me: Whyyyyyyyy… Gimmi a reason!
Brain: Cos you got that tattooed on your arm to remind you to “do the impossible”. This is impossible so you will get it done!
Me: Dammit… *Groan…

#thinkbeforeyoutattoo #damnyoubrain #hellosleeplessnights #stilllovingwhatido#girlbossgottadowhatagirlbossgottado

Packing the office today and found this picture in one of my notebooks. I always wondered if I had a chance to go back and talk to my 14 year old self, what I will I say?

I will probably give her a big hug and tell her to fear less and live more. I will tell her to be excited and look forward to life.

To try everything cos she will travel to places she will never dream of going, touch lives of kids like how her teachers have touched hers, and with that, create beautiful things that evokes emotions deep in people’s hearts.

I will tell her to make mistakes, tons of it cos she has nothing to lose at her age, and mistakes don’t hurt as bad as she thinks. To pursue things she loved cos one day she will be able to make a living out of that.

I will tell her to love. Love deeply and fiercely cos one day, she will marry someone who loves her deeply and will be fiercely loyal to her too.

I will tell her to never give up her art and creative side cos that’s where she will grow. And not to beat herself up too much over her academic scores. That in the future, the dyslexia part she feels hinders her will be her best asset and gift to lead her to incredible places and work with incredible people.

I will tell her to keep dreaming and dream big cos her future self will make sure that all her dreams become reality.

To remember the values she hold so dear as cos it will enable her to be the girl boss she always dreamt to being. That money is not everything and the quality of life is the number of lives touched and not the number of zeros in the bank.

To keep learning cos it is alright to be a jack of all trades. That will be her unique selling point in the future.

I’ll tell her she is gonna get a six pack in the near future so don’t be too concerned about her fats now. And she will be a unicorn in about 20 years time.

And don’t be too attached to that kitty cos she will need to give her up one day. Cos in life she will give many things up but all will be fine. That God has her back so don’t worry too much.

Damn I miss that kitty..

-Sam-

Do you know anyone who takes things or people for granted? I guess you can call them entitled or maybe just plain takers.

It feels like everything is the fault of others and they take no responsibility in how their own actions might affect others.

And when things go awry, they kick and scream like little kids who got their candy taken away from them.

And they stand up and walk away like nothing happened.

I have been dealing with quite a few these days.

And it is starting to wear me down.

I am a giver but how do you deal with people who keep taking and taking?

Maybe one day they will change?

Or maybe one day they might grow up.

Then lets pray that that day will come soon cos I am almost scraping the barrel at this point of time.

-Sam-

So we went to the the skyline lugeeeeeee yesterday in this ‘Singapore don’t feel like Singapore’ weather to try out their new tracks. Super fun!

It was actually my first time in a luge in Singapore and i remember doing this in New Zealand many years ago very fondly.

But the reality is that this is Singapore and due to the heat, the helmets smells…. funky..

That aside, I truly enjoyed the day and it was a good break from mind numbing editing!

Big big love to @silver_ang for the invite and @skylinelugesentosa for having us!!!

Indeed #onceisneverenough

come… come onnnn innnn…

Slightly stressed especially these 2 monkeys like er… rocking the boat? I don’t even like roller coasters!!

Yup don’t look down.. All is well..

Thanks for the fun guys!!!

-Sam-

What makes you feel powerful? Some people feel that their achievements make them feel powerful, others feel that their appearance make them feel powerful. Some people feel powerful in a gym, other feel powerful in the boardroom.

I feel most powerful when i am most at peace with myself. But for every other day, there is always make up to aid the insecurities. Oh lucky us!

Fake it till you make it. Cos you will get there one day if

you keep believing in it and take steps to get there!

But today is one of those days I feel good about myself.

Today is one of those days I feel empowered.

Today is one of those days I feel I can take on the world.

And frankly, I need more of those days..

#makeupismypower #Singapore #lancome #zouk